No, I have not turned into a hippie...although, I am selling organic health and beauty products, using cloth diapers when the baby comes, and I'm now all about the recycling.
Okay, so I SOUND like a hippie (I jest...we'll call it environmentally aware), but that's not the peace I'm talking about.
I'm talking about the peace that passes understanding - Philippians 4:6-7 kind of peace:
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation,
by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving,
present your requests to God.
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding,
will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.
I was laying in my bed just now and realized I was completely at peace, and it was the best feeling in the world. This verse has been working on my heart so much the last year or so. I come back to it continually. I don't know a lot of scripture verbatim, and I definitely don't know the references 99% of the time (where exactly to find them in the Bible), but I know this one.
It is engraved upon my heart.
That's obviously an argument for memorizing more scripture, but that's another subject entirely. For now, we'll stick to the peace.
My life is peaceful right now...busy, crazy, and noisy (not right this second because I don't have the kids), but peaceful.
- We are about to bring another child into this crazy world.
- I'm quitting my full-time job that brings in half of our income each month.
- Josiah is looking for different employment - something that brings home more or equal to what he makes now, and preferably, would give him weekends off most of the time to spend with us and go to church.
- I'm launching a new part-time home sales business - something I've never attempted before.
I'm sure there are things I'm forgetting on that list, too, but for now that's good enough,
With all of that going on, somehow, God has given me peace. A deep peace that transcends anything I ever thought was possible. I now KNOW the true meaning of having "peace like a river in my soul," and it's awe inspiring.
Our child will be loved by so many. God led us to make the decision for me to quit my job, so I know one way or another, He will provide. If/when Josiah is to find other employment, it will be exactly where God desires Him to be and in His time. He will give me whatever time and energy I need to get any of my tasks done, no matter what they are, as long as I am seeking His will in how and where I use that energy; thus, my business will be as successful as it needs to be for His plan in my life...no more, no less.
It's perfect peace.
I know He will provide what we need, or at the very least, an avenue to get what we need, as long as we are seeking and acting upon His will for our lives.
And my God will meet all of your needs
according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.
Peace like a river. *sigh*
It's awesome. :)